Wednesday, March 2, 2011

An Ephiphany: A mother realizes the cause of her impatience.

I think the hardest part about being a mom is not the lack of sleep but the impossibility of day dreaming or planning quietly in my own mind.  Just coming to the computer to write this I know it will be a short post because my son is awake and is always speaking to me.  Don't get me wrong, I love that he has a good grasp of the english language but sometimes, selfishly and foolishly, I just want to think in quiet.

I've just come to realize this cause of my unhappiness after naptime.  I've always been one to wander with my thoughts, to mentally replay parts of my day or rethink about what I just read in a good book.  I think this is what causes me to lose patience with Micah so quickly.  I feel as though a conversation is being interrupted.  Clearly he has no idea that his mother lives so much in her own mind.  To him he is breaking the silence, learning to communicate and start conversations.  Sorry my child.  Now that I know this is an issue I will realize the pettiness and try to save my thoughts for after 7pm.